moving forward

dreamt about you for 2 consecutive nights now...
:(
i am starting to move forward...
i am planning to move on..
but you still keep on haunting me..
why!?!
dear God why!?
:(
i always read what you have said to me..
so every time i have the urge to send you a message...
will stop and think...
haha..
i am not even welcome in your life now..
why would i insist myself!?
history is repeating itself..
:(
i was like this... i think that was 6 yrs ago..
2009.. to be exact,,, you told me so many hurtful words... :(
i was hoping to get back with you..
and kept on insisting myself for 3 months...
and i heard you were checking someone new and dating someone else..
going to church with you and etc..
and when you thought she's no good for you..
you came back to me.. :(
after all the hurtful things you said to me..
you came back and i accepted you..
i admit i said bad and hurtful things to you and most of them
are not true and just blurted out because of anger and frustrations..
but u never accept me when i did mistakes.. :(
every time we are breaking up and i come begging for you..
you always reject me...
but when you will come to me...
i always accept you...
haaaaaaaaay
life is truly unfair..
maybe i was the one loving you too much in the relationship...
i became crazy in this relationship..
and im getting back now..
il walk away even if its hurting me all the time..
but i will be fine..
i will not beg anymore...
and even tho i wanted to be with you..
if you will ever come back.. :(
i just wish im over you already...
you be happy with that gelyn girl.. :(
i just hope she will not hurt you the way i hurt you...
i regret doing all the things iv done..
and i will keep all the good memories..
the fun memories..
and will never forget it and will forever keep you in my heart
until the last days of my life.. :(
i still love you but i have to let go before i could no longer feel anything.. :(

iloveyougoodbye